Unloved, Unworthy, Understood

Trigger Warning: I’m about to talk about sexual assault. It will likely not get graphic but if you can’t stomach talks about sexual assault or rape. do not proceed. Thank you, in advance, for reading and letting me get this off my chest. (insert a multitude of emojis, gifs, & memes that display anxiety. ThisContinue reading “Unloved, Unworthy, Understood”

Hurt People, Hurt People

My grandma popped my baby. That’s it, that’s the story. My grandmother popped my baby & I LOST! MY! SHIT! I couldn’t see past my triggers and I lost it! The helpless and scared kid in me jumped out and was front and center to defend my child; cause if I say “don’t hit myContinue reading “Hurt People, Hurt People”

If Yo Girl Only Knew

I wish I knew that: 1: Every day will not be sunshine & rainbows. In fact, you might outright hate motherhood and that’s okay! 2: There is no smooth transition from woman to mom. And it sucks. 3: Self-care is no longer easy. 4: This is your journey and yours alone. YOU are the mother.Continue reading “If Yo Girl Only Knew”

Get that BREAD, get that HEALING, and LEAVE

Alright so boom! I keep typing this and deleting it, writing it down then erasing it, and I’m tired of that so here it goes… My child’s father treated me like absolute shit for the entire 9 months that I was pregnant. There, I said it. And I’m clenching my jaw as I’m typing thisContinue reading “Get that BREAD, get that HEALING, and LEAVE”

Fast & Frustrated 9

Forty-five minutes. Forty! Five! MINUTES!!!! That’s how long a trip to the movies with nine month old Bean lasted. Here I go calling myself enjoying a nice day out with my mom and aunt; thinking “long as I have snacks & boobs everything will be alright.” Chileeeeeee PLEASE!! Miss Bean showed her little black buttContinue reading “Fast & Frustrated 9”

Truth Time

My priorities are screwed. I’d rather spend time playing sims, scrolling instagram, and typing captions and blog posts in my notes app rather than posting them. Why? I feel unqualified to be a “mom blogger”. I feel like I’m too “new” to motherhood to have the audacity to sit and document our experiences; but 500Continue reading “Truth Time”